A Tribute

Dear Rambha,


Hope you are enjoying the status of being an angel now and having fun with God :)


You left us all alone on this stupid planet earth. You know what, I have seen you so many times in my dreams..trying to communicate with me over phone...


I really miss you and I am really sorry that I could not even meet you once more, the last time. I still remember that how you went out of your way, not just once but at least 4-5 times, just to meet me. I want you to know that how privileged I feel, because I had a friend like you. I am so proud of you baby, you gave a tough fight to cancer. You never lost your spirit to live..But I feel good for you that now you are relieved from all the pains and sufferings. 


I am really sorry for not being able to keep my promises...By the way you did not write a testimonial for me :( I am definitely not gonna leave you without this..huh!! he he he. Since you are so close to bhagwan ji now too meri shiffarish time time par lagati rehna ;)


Will keep you alive in my memories...


take care :) 




With loads of love


Ankita

M-A-R-R-I-A-G-E!

I am 26 now, and as per Indian standards I should have got married by now. Everybody who pings asks, hey! when are you getting married? Well, now you know why my title is written in this format.

There have been different kind of questions. For instance, the kind of guy I would want to get married to? Am I seeing any guy? If not then does that mean that I am not straight, I am not interested in guys? Oh Ma...give me a break..now where is that coming from??

Nevertheless, these questions actually pushed me to think the kind of guy I would like to spend my life with. I realized that post marriage, I will be away from my paternal home. This means that the new relationship that I am looking for must be something that can help me not miss my family. The family that I will leave after my marriage. That relationship has to offer me all those things that I used to get from my paternal family.

Here I am, the closest relationship to my heart has been with my mother. She has never been fed up with my stupid questions, in fact she has always answered them..She has hold my hand tight even in those tough times when I had thought of giving up on life itself. She has taken all my tantrums, without making any complaints.. She has always listened to my idiotic talks without judging me..

So, will the new relationship be able to give me all this..will he be able to hold my hand and tell me that no matters what Ankita, we are together forever now.. I believe that if he is capable of doing this then I will give my life to make that relationship workout. Divorce is not gonna be a choice for us for sure.

This is for the first time that I am so clear about what I expect from my potential groom. Thanks to all those people who drilled me so much, that I could reach this conclusion.

Thanks!